Category Archives: FFACTTT

In Love

I need a man like this.

Jodi List

A while ago a made a post about bucket list. It was inspired by seeing Jodi on Ellen. Jodi passed away this past Saturday.

Dear Jodi, I never knew you. I watched you on the Ellen show. Thank you for your life. Thank you for sharing it with the world. I am grateful for your family and your fun list. You inspired me to make my own. I love you. My God bless your family. Love, Nicole

What is on your Bucket List???

I feel like life runs in themes.  Well, at least mine does.  We learn line upon line and precept upon precept.  God knows I can only get one thing through my brain at a time.  Right now the undercurrent of my life seems to be that it is short.  I need to decide who I want to be and be it.  Know what I want to do and do it.  Life belongs to me and I should live it.  Recently I watched this clip from the Ellen show.  This woman is dying of cancer so her and her family made a “fun list” to direct their time together. To make it valuable.

A few years ago a friend introduced me to the Day Zero is a place to record your goals, discover new
challenges, and gain motivation to achieve them. What you do is build a list of 101 things you want to do – then track
your progress over the next 1001 days. It is a really neat site.  I have not looked at mine in over a year.  I have 386 days left and have only completed 19% of my goals.  Some of the goals I have completed include visiting the Grand Canyon, sleeping under the stars, leaving a note inside a book for someone and planting a garden.  Some goals I have yet to complete include going skydiving, getting a passport, going on vacation with just my dad and falling in love.  Right now my list only includes 74 things.  In order to seek inspiration for my making my list reach 101 goals I watched the movie The Bucket List.  If you have not seen it you should.  It is amazing and leaves you feeling good and excited about life.  Maybe after you watch it you will feel inspired to head over to and make a bucket list of your own.  And if you have any ideas of goals that I can add to my bucket list please PLEASE share.  Love, Nicole

Hiking a Glacier. Goal Complete!

A Letter to Glee

Dear Glee,

My love for you has not been consistent.  And I am not sorry.  But today my love for you is true as true can be. Thank you Mark for letting me use your Plus.

I have had a number of people in my life commit suicide.  I have often thought to myself that I could have or should have done something different.  That maybe things might not have turned out the way they did.  The truth is that none of us can afford to think like that.  Maybe things would have been different or maybe not.  We will never know.

To this day I am filled with regret and a deep sense of shame regarding one experience in my life.  Luckily this story ends on a happy note.  It was a busy day and I was tired, emotionally.  I received a call from a dear friend.  I saw who was calling me and I chose not to answer it.  I felt like I did not have the energy to give to this person.  They called a few more times and I still did not answer my phone.  A few weeks later I went to lunch with this friend.  He told me that he had tried to get a hold of me a while back.  I knew what he was referring too.  He confided in me that on that day he was in a very dark place.  For some reason he felt he could turn to me.  He wanted to kill himself and was seriously thinking about it.  He didn’t know whom else to call.  My friend did not kill himself and is in a lot better place now.  Thank goodness.  When I think about this conversation today I am just as disappointed in myself as I was the day I heard it.  I vowed that if I was able I would always pick up the phone when a friend called because one just doesn’t ever know.  I love my friend and I let him down in his time of greatest need. I never want to do that again, to anyone.

So Glee,  Thank you.  Thank you for bringing me back.  Back in time.  Back to my memories.  Back to the truth that life is too short.  Today I vow to always cheer for the underdog AND the champions.  I vow to never hold back love or kindness.  And I vow to never text while I drive.

Warm Regards, Nicole

I need a man….

Listen.  I live with my best friend.  We have a house together and raise a 2-year-old together.  I don’t know how you homosexuals do it. If you have a family together and can make it work kudos to you!  Seriously.  Because Liz and I need men in our lives.  Liz and I make a great team but the trash has not been taken out in over a week.  I mean, don’t get me wrong, I am woman hear me roar but I also know my role and I want to play it.  I love you Liz but it is time we got ourselves some boyfriends.

Nicole, Liz, Rocklyn


My Future Boyfriends

We are not homeless but sometimes we look it…

Liz and I talking about homeless people:

Me: I met this girl once who told me that she was homeless for 3 years by choice.  I asked her why she would choose to be homeless and she told me she just wanted to see what it was like.  I don’t know if I believer her.  I mean, if you want to know what it is like to be homeless why be homeless for three years?  Why not a week or two?  Seriously if you want to know what it is like to be homeless why not backpack through Europe for a month.  Thats the way to do it. If I were to be homeless I would do it in the most glamorous way possible.

Liz:  Nicole, that is why you are not homeless.

Lots of Laughter.

Liz:  Who ARE we? I really like the color of your walls.

Hello world!

Welcome.  I’m Nicole.   I am a nanny.  I live by the motto of if you see or touch something everyday it should be pretty.  I have a lot of pretty things.  Well as much as one young eternal college student can have. I have a strong belief in high heels, kale, leggings, lip stick and of course, Jesus Christ.  I am starting new in life, thus the new blog.

I tend to dress a little different.  I am known to sing songs aloud as I make them up.  I call it improv.  Others call it creepy.  I pray at the drop of a hat.  What can I say?  I am a believer.  Sometimes I swear.  Sometimes I shimmy.  Gay men make me do both.  I have an addiction to green smoothies, k-love and Lady Gaga.  I love to watch my shows and read self-help books in my free time.  Juno and The Painted Veil are two of my favorite movies. I try to always do the right thing, love all people and cheer for the underdog.  My hair is wild.  Wild like a lion.  I love me some butter.    A number of people have told me a Emma Stone reminds them of me. I knew I should have been an actress…

Oh.  And I’m a mormon.